I like to think of myself as someone always happy-go-lucky , and I suppose I used to be. I’d get upset, but it never lasted long- all it really took was a good laugh and I’d be over it. But these days , the smallest things, the smallest memory can cause me to plunge into insecurity and unhappiness. I cant be myself anymore, I just sit around quietly feeling all self conscious and uncomfortable.

I hate it when my friends tell me im different now because I know it and it sucks being reminded. These days I just keep holding onto my grudges, even though I know I shouldn’t bother. Call me a hateful bitch, but I just really cant and wont let people treat me like shit. Its getting to me so bad because its my biggest insecurity. I don’t trust many people anymore; sometimes I cant even trust my own bestfriend. I act like im okay with someone when im not.

I hate that you judge me, when really , you’d never know what its like unless you’ve been through it before. You don’t know, theres so much you don’t fucking know, but yet you think you do. You wask why I cant just get over it? Because I will NOT let her/him think they can do this and that to me , and get away with it. She/him is no one to me, and I will NOT take there shit. You will not know or ever understand, what I;ve been through because of she/him. Its been long, but that’s because I never knew what really happened. I assume better of them and I was wrong.

I SHOULD STOP THINKING EVERYONE CAN EMPATHISE AND UNDERSTAND BECAUSE REALLY THEY CANT. I KEEP UNDERESTIMATING HOW SELFISH, STUDIP AND BITCHY PEOPLE CAN BE. I KEEP PUTTING MYSELF IN THEIR SHOES AND NOT BLAMING THEM EVEN THOUGH WHAT I IMAGINES WAS REALLY FAR FROM THE TRUTH. SO FUCK YOU

FUCK YOU VERY MUCH !

Its been awhile but I’ve been keeping it to myself and honestly, its really killing my ego.

I like to think of myself as someone always happy-go-lucky , and I suppose I used to be. I’d get upset, but it never lasted long- all it really took was a good laugh and I’d be over it. But these days , the smallest things, the smallest memory can cause me to plunge into insecurity and unhappiness. I cant be myself anymore, I just sit around quietly feeling all self conscious and uncomfortable.

I hate it when my friends tell me im different now because I know it and it sucks being reminded. These days I just keep holding onto my grudges, even though I know I shouldn’t bother. Call me a hateful bitch, but I just really cant and wont let people treat me like shit. Its getting to me so bad because its my biggest insecurity. I don’t trust many people anymore; sometimes I cant even trust my own bestfriend. I act like im okay with someone when im not.

I hate that you judge me, when really , you’d never know what its like unless you’ve been through it before. You don’t know, theres so much you don’t fucking know, but yet you think you do. You wask why I cant just get over it? Because I will NOT let her/him think they can do this and that to me , and get away with it. She/him is no one to me, and I will NOT take there shit. You will not know or ever understand, what I;ve been through because of she/him. Its been long, but that’s because I never knew what really happened. I assume better of them and I was wrong.

I SHOULD STOP THINKING EVERYONE CAN EMPATHISE AND UNDERSTAND BECAUSE REALLY THEY CANT. I KEEP UNDERESTIMATING HOW SELFISH, STUDIP AND BITCHY PEOPLE CAN BE. I KEEP PUTTING MYSELF IN THEIR SHOES AND NOT BLAMING THEM EVEN THOUGH WHAT I IMAGINES WAS REALLY FAR FROM THE TRUTH. SO FUCK YOU

FUCK YOU VERY MUCH !

Its been awhile but I’ve been keeping it to myself and honestly, its really killing my ego.