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Monday, April 19, 2010 !@#$% 12:40 AM
i apologize  sorry i havent been updating about whats happening these days , well to tell you ; this week been my week at all , so many things have happened , and so many times i have cried. its like so strange you know ? ; when everything changes itself out of no where.. where you arnt ready for the change, and have to suffer. some of my friends have also changed , in a way that i never thought they`d change to.nothing gives me a break nowadays. like i cant even relax my brains. always school work , then problems..pushing itself together at once , its like really tiring you know ? like i wish people understood me more , and get with my flow. not just listen to other peoples words and think its actually true. when it isnt. like ffs , im so sick and tired of those people.. and there's so many two face people these days. i hate them. i just think people should give me a break.. not because im selfish and is thinking just for myself. but i've done so much for people , and yet they dont realise ; or appreciate anything that i do . i dont even know why i still bother trying when i know all i`ll ever get is nothing.i just wish it was like those old days. when everybody was themselfs. i guess i cant complain , i feel that i've changed also but at least i realise that ive changed. im having so much problems these days like i cant just have a day without something happening. i've been stressing alot its because of school aswell i have so much assignments and have to study for exams its like my brain isnt ready and i cant concentrate properly right now even though i try my best to put everything aside i just wanna rageragerage ! and want some place that i can concentrate. i wish i could fly ayees.. if i could fly i'd fly and never come back (: (L) im having problems with one of my bestfriends also. but i guess i'll have to live with every single problem i have atms .. and stop thinking about it , when is seriously impossible. i just wish that everything was the same .. i know i stuffed up big time , and babe , im seriously sorry .. i know i make our relationship unhealthy. thats my mistake .. and i dont think i deserve you i seriously love you , and yet im not ready to lose you.. not ever. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - ; i honestly love you ..♥ my day has been yeah , cept my friends make it all better (: those who havent changed , omfg ; i love yous so much ♥ exams soon kids ! , i have to start studying and smiling more [: ♥ |